I pissed my “boss” off today lol. He’s an idiot. I told him if you’re going to let one person clock in early you need to let everyone.. if one person can’t, nobody should be allowed to. And he starts going off “I’m the boss! I run this ship! Blah blah blah!” LOL well MAYBE if you ran your ship right, I wouldn’t have to tell you how to. He’s useless, seriously. I have no idea how he made it to his position.

And now she posted on Facebook “Feeling a little used right about now” wtf. Is that supposed to be about me? Because I asked for some fucking water that costs 3 bucks? Which is the first thing I’ve EVER asked her for. I didn’t ask to live here, I didn’t ask for her to give us money and I sure as hell haven’t used her. We’re living here rent free until June (she offered and I was against it, but whatever). But I feel like even though I’m not paying rent, I’ve made up for it. I do dishes, laundry, clean up.. I take Logan basically where ever the fuck he needs to go.. I do a lot. I always offer to help with whatever, and the only time I ever ASK for help, is when I need to pick up Taylor I ask if it’s okay to leave Isaiah (for just like 10 minutes) with her… maybe that wasn’t about me.. but it was a hell of a coincidence if it wasn’t..

One of the circumstances that was discussed when we moved here was that Teena was going to continue doing grocery shopping just as she always does, and we would only have to buy food if it was something specific that we wanted just for us.

We’ve lived here.. what? Like a month now? And she’s gone grocery shopping ONCE.

She SAID she was going to go grocery shopping today… but instead she was out for TWO HOURS and came back with clothes and just enough food to make dinner tonight.

I told Taylor to ask her if she’d get some bottled water, that’s ALL I asked for.. but no.

But that’s okay, it’s not like I’ve been sitting here all day long, have drank NOTHING, and have eaten nothing except for a small bowl of lime sherbert. THAT’S OKAY THOUGH. Not like I’ve ever mattered before anyway.

It must be nice to just have all this money in the world, apparently. Your closet is packed with clothes, and you even have so many that you have to put a BUNCH of clothes in your son’s closet as well… and yet you STILL go shopping. And I’m over here wearing sweatpants I’ve had since high school, and maternity shirts because I can’t afford to spend ANY extra money. Gah. End rant.

Your son has no shoes that fit him, other than a pair of flip flops.. and you’re out buying new shirts? Nice to know where your priorities are.

I think she’s bringing him back though.. she’s left a few times and has been gone a while, so we think she’s going off and meeting him somewhere.. I don’t want Isaiah to grow up in this shit.. having Tom here for a few months, then arguments for a week and he leaves for a while, and then he’s back again.. and that just go on and on. NO. I don’t want him to think that’s the way a relationship should be.. Babies are very impressionable, they do what they see. And if he sees that? He’ll grow up that way. NO. I’ll be damned if my son grows up to be anything like that. I’ve seen how Teena, my mom, my aunts, and even me have been treated.. and I’ll be fucking DAMNED if my son grows up to be one of those men.

I don’t mean to sound like a bitch when I say this.. but these two have been together like 6 years, only been married a month longer than I’ve been with Taylor. She knew who/how he was when she met him. She met him in a BAR for Christ sake. She knew he’d never change, so she was the idiot for marrying him. Yeah, it’s fault for not wanting to change, being an ass, etc.. but it’s her fault for not leaving his ass sooner, and for marrying him. You don’t have to get snappy and bitchy at all of us in house because of a decision YOU made.

So Teena kicked Tom (her husband) out. Because he’s a doucebag alcoholic and yadda yadda. Now she’s all moped around all day long, she locks herself in her room all the time, and when she comes out she barely talks to anyone. Anyway, she has to watch Isaiah for us for part of Saturday, and all of Sunday. So I get home yesterday (from working an 11 hour shift might I add) and here’s Isaiah in the same outfit he slept in last night. (I leave at a little past 5 in the morning, so obviously I’m not going to change his outfit.. he’s still sleeping.) It’s absolutely FILTHY. There’s a ring of formula all around the top and bits all over, so he stinks up to high Heaven (I’m sure you’ve all smelled old formula). And THEN the formula we got from WIC wasn’t enough for the month, so we had to go buy some.. I grab the diaper bag that’s sitting in the living room, and it’s COMPLETELY empty. No wipes, no diapers, those kind of things.. So before I can leave I have to pack the diaper bag. Which is SUPER annoying to me. I keep the diaper bag fully stocked at all times so whoever is home with the baby can just grab it and go. But no not this time. Because she’s too fucking lazy to go into his room and grab a diaper.. seriously? Just sit your ass on the couch all Goddamn day and pick out of a diaper bag so you don’t have to move. Must be nice.

He says he’s tired of having to borrow money and all that. Well if you hadn’t spent all of our fucking money on your stupid ass selfish purchases then we wouldn’t have to borrow money. $800 computer, $100 mouse, 2 different $80 headphones? Bullshit. All of that money could have went for way more important things! But no. You just had to have this shit so you could play your precious games. I don’t know why you buy half the shit you buy anyway because half the time you get pissed off at the game and end up throwing and breaking shit. Just like one of those headphones.. and there we have 80 fucking dollars just thrown into the trash can like it was nothing. And now we have to borrow money for gas just so I can get to work. It’s all your fault. I blame you completely.

I think it’s bullshit that when your mother is being disrespected you have to make your presence known and tell the person off.. but you can then turn around and treat me the exact same way he treated her.. but it’s okay because you “didn’t mean it”.. it was a “mistake” and you’re sooooo “sorry”.